I want a fic in which John and Sherlock were together to some degree before the fall, which adds an element of distrustful ‘were you trying to get away from me’ to the already so painful fake suicide. John doesn’t LOVE love Mary but is so set on this idea of a normal life and family, possibly as a coping mechanism/ anthisis to the sheer pain of the last two years, that even after Sherlock’s return he’s willing blindly fight tooth and nail for that ideal even it keeps being tugged away from him. Because if this dream of married life which he’s grasping onto goes then he’s really left with nothing psycologically to hang onto anymore and that is a gaping abyss of mental issues that he is totally unable to acknowledge.
Is anyone writing a fic like that?
Guys, I love Doodles’ brain.