I MEAN JUST UGH THIS SCENE I HAVE SO MANY FEELS.

“Why is she like that?”

He was so proud.  He thought he could do normal.  He was like, “LOOK I CAN DO NORMAL.  I CAN BE OKAY IN A NORMAL WORLD THAT DOESN’T INCLUDE SHERLOCK.”

“I CAN EXIST IN AN UNBROKEN UNIFIED PIECE IN THAT WORLD.”

“I HAVE A WIFE NOW A LOVELY NICE NORMAL WIFE WHO IS PROOF THAT I DO NOT NEED TO BE RISKING MY LIFE AND/OR SOUL AND THE AGONY OF BEING SHOT AND NEARLY DYING OR HAVING MY HEART RIPPED OUT WITH LOSS IN ORDER TO BE HAPPY.  I CAN BE HAPPY IN A WORLD THAT DOESN’T INCLUDE MY ABJECT SUFFERING HANGING OVER MY HEAD.”

“I DON’T NEED HIM TO BE OKAY.  I AM NOT RELIANT ON SOMEONE WHO KEEPS FUCKING DYING ON ME.”

But you aaaaaaaare, John.  You aaaaaare.